Wow.

Alright, that's a random picture of my kitchen.

Anyways, I can't sleep. My mind goes to dark places when I don't have distractions. Distractions come in many forms for me. Playing mobile games, Netflix, gym, work, playing with Lola or my favourite, just being a nuisance around Joseph. 

Can you believe that secondary school was 20 years ago for me?! That's fucking crazy, right? Fuck me.

I remember not attending schools on most parts and if I did, it was probably because of a girl named Noreen. I couldn't recall much except for the fact that she's my crush's bestfriend whom I ended up falling head over hills for, but ended up not being with, because another girl came along and all else is history. 

I wasn't meant for school. 

I wasn't meant for work either. 

I didn't get serious about anything till I was 26, I think. 

But diving into work didn't really mean I didn't had fun. But it's more work related fun.

Time flew fast after 26. 

Right now, it feels as though I am trying to slow down time and savour each moment. 

Joseph is about to hit 30 in 2 years. 🤔😲 I knew her when she was sweet, pure and naive. Now she's kinda almost jaded like me! Hahaha! I reminded her now and then to be a better person than I am. 

I see the world as a sack of shit. I still don't like kids. Thinks of religion as an excuse for people to do things to each other or to themselves. And that everything is alright if you practice moderation. 

To be honest, I like my life now. It feels complete. Except that it would be great to start earning 5 figures, which is the plan for 2020. I need that raise. 

Let us pray. 

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